AUGURIES CAST ASIDE in Poetry THIS LINK
DEAR MR. PRESIDENT in Cordite THIS LINK
Fear of the dark motivated prehistoric human beings to
discover and invent ways of holding onto light throughout the night. We take
light bulbs and electricity for granted, but for centuries we have found many
means to harness different materials to make light: wood, animal fat, beeswax, paraffin,
gas, electricity, etc. I wrote a list of the various ways I have used or
witnessed human-made light so far in my lifetime: electric ceiling lights, floodlights,
emergency exit lights, streetlights, headlights, flashlights, lighthouses, oil
lamps, wood stoves, campfires, torches, candles, twinkling Christmas lights, etc. I took notes for the poem.
Then I taped small flashlights to my shoulders and wore a
thin, colored shirt over top, glowing in the dark while meditating on photos
from the deepest parts of the oceans, where most life on Earth lives. With their bodies these creatures create
light to say Hello, to find a mate, to hunt prey, to detract from
predators. Their language of light is beyond
anything we can convey or experience on the surface of the planet. I took notes for the poem.
I drew a
rough sketch of Whisper and filled in the drawing with black ink. Then I made a kite out of sticks and paper,
gluing Whisper's silhouette on the front.
I made secret notes on another piece of paper with words she knew for
hunting and running through the forest, then glued it to the back of the kite,
or rather the side that takes the wind.
Sending it
up, her rough portrait facing the sky above me, the wind pushing my secret
messages through the kite and into her image.
Because we lived in the country she never knew the tug of a leash, so it
felt odd having the pull against my wrist, but at the same time I liked it,
that tension, getting to feel the weight of the wind upon her drawing. I took notes for the poem while flying my old
friend above me.
The grid's ingredients: Four solid copper 16-ounce water bottles, each containing 9 crystals of 3 pieces of amethyst, 3 pieces of carnelian, and 3 pieces of rose quartz. Each bottle was then filled with crystal-infused water and sealed.
How the grid works: I sit on top of the buried copper container of crystals in Omaha. With a compass, I align myself with Minneapolis. Once I have aligned myself I eat a small amount of dirt from the Minneapolis location and listen to ambient recordings of the site. After meditating and tuning into Minneapolis from my seat in Omaha, I begin taking the raw notes which are later shaped into poems. I then face Memphis and repeat with eating dirt and listening to sounds from Memphis, then after that, I do the same for Cheyenne. I repeat the whole process a second time, then again a third time. It is almost exclusively from the third round where most of the harvested notes become poems. The grid winds clockwise, winds tighter with each turn, the first round making the base of a pyramid. The second round is the midsection, then finally the third round brings the peak of the pyramid, and the feelings of writing are a most extreme euphoria during the third and final round.
The grid crosses and touches eleven different states: Arkansas, Colorado, Illinois, Iowa, Kansas, Minnesota, Missouri, Nebraska, South Dakota, Tennessee, and Wyoming. The Mississippi River touches the triangle three different times, charging the eastern wall of the triangle as the water and the grid's energy pushes from Minneapolis to Memphis.
My sleep after performing the ritual and writing inside the crystal grid has been a deeper state of relaxation than normal for me where I wake revitalized and feel happy. My dreams these nights have centered on life inside the triangular frame of the grid, especially on my birth city of Topeka, Kansas. I was born on the Forbes Air Force Base where my biological father Dennis McNeil was stationed. The base was built in response to the start of WWII, then later became the home of the 90th Bombardment Wing during the Korean War. When I was born during the Vietnam War the Titan missiles had been decommissioned and the base was being used as a Tactical Air Command facility. These mornings waking the day after time spent with the grid are filled with meditation and writing focused on how the grid crosses the direct path of Manifest Destiny: that 19th-century belief of the white supremacist power structure that they did not need to share the North American continent with native people. My birthplace later became a home for the military industrial complex to take the premise of Manifest Destiny and spread it beyond our borders to kill and thieve in other nations of people of color. I may wake relaxed and happy, but I insist I keep a close focus on the crimes that made my life possible.
Outdoors: This crystal moved between wild plants, meaning
only plants whose seeds were transported by birds, wind or some other natural
force. The guardedness I was feeling at one point while writing with
the crystal after it had been sitting with a plant did not make sense until I
realized that the meadow within a few feet of it had been mowed. How
had I not realized this straight away? There I was in my human body
not thinking that -- literally -- THOUSANDS of other plants had been freshly
chopped to their knees, their bodies were strewn everywhere, their strong odor
of chlorophyll pouring from their wounds in the hot sun.